MARCH BREAK!! :D :D :D

Yeah, you can see how excited I am about it. :D

Anyway, so... I got my short story back from my Writer's Craft teacher, and apparently it's not "realistic" if a girl doesn't care that her fiance's disappeared for a month. Who knew?

And, guess what? I'm moving!! YEAH!! Not that I don't like this home, or anything, it's just that I GET TO HAVE MY OWN ROOM!! I'm so excited!
Originally, it was going to be in the basement, but apparently, I'll hole up in there and live like a hermit if I'm ever allowed down there (especially if I get my own Netbook). So, I get an upstairs room. :D

So, I was reading on my PSP when it just turned off. o.0 It's never done that before. I decided to research my PSP's battery life span, and... got nothing.
But I found out that Sony's going to release an awesome new PSP this December!! It's called the "Next Generation Portable."
And I'll get to play Uncharted on it!! I LOVE Uncharted! I even downloaded the soundtrack. :P
Maybe I'll even get to play Assassin's Creed. I really hope so. I love Assassin's Creed, especially when they came out with that crossbow. It was like, "Oh, that guard's suspicious," *whip out crossbow* "Not anymore." Before, I had to use throwing knives. But, personally, I'm a fan of jumping off the ledge and striking them from the air. :P
I heard the next one is with a girl Assassin. I really hope so. That would be totally cool.
My brother's playing Red Dead Redemption right now, but I think I'll be able to take a go at it during the Break. It looks like fun.
I'll probably have a job by then, so I'm going to buy the NGP the first month it comes out.

Anyway, I've made a list of all the things I'm going to do this week (which, despite my procrastinating tendencies, I hopefully will get to):

1. Finish editing short story.
2. Write in journal everyday.
3. Finish that Fictionpress story I started in Grade 9 (and never even got to 5000 words, despite all my reviewers' efforts).
4. PAINT!! (I bought a paint set from Dollarama and I'm going to paint my wooden box that I keep all my special coins in).
5. Buy fancy stationary.
6. Practice different methods of writing.
7. Finish all my Java programs (especially that String game that was supposed to be an archaic sort of Hangman).
8. Finish up to Chapter 3 in my Advanced Functions homework (Night school is amazing--I didn't do any homework and I'm getting a 98).
9. Apply for jobs (summer, now, whatever)***(COMPLETE MUST)
   

And, if I think of anything else, I'll add to it.

So... yeah. This feels more like my friend's (I'll call her ARR) post more than anything.
I know it's completely unusual for me to write in this style, but... I think I like it.
It's refreshing. :D

Weird Shit

Okay, you know what... I'll start with the beginning.

My friends say that I'm a bit too trusting.

Last summer, I had a biking accident where I sprained (or fractured--I'm not really sure) my elbow. So it was pretty difficult to lift my bike into an upright position when my elbow was screaming in pain (I couldn't move my arm at all), and I was bleeding from a small injury on my head, and wrist, as well as the scrapes on my arms that came from contact with the cement. A piece of my tooth had also broken off.
This nice guy driving by offered to take me to the hospital and have me checked out, and drive my bike there, as well. He was a stranger. But he was nice, so I accepted.
I know what you're thinking, but it didn't happen.
He drove me to the hospital (and then drove off).
The end.

So, when I told my friends this story of how I came to have a cast (that they all signed), they were all (naturally) horrified. I promised them that I would never get into another stranger's car willingly again.
(I didn't tell them of the other time, before the hospital--but he was nice, too).

Then, yesterday, it happened again, when I was coming home from night school.
So I was standing there at the bus stop, all by myself, waiting (for what seemed like hours) for the bus, at 10:30 in the night, when this guy drives by. He sees me waiting, and says (approximately--I don't have photographic memory), "Hey, I'm going the same way. Do you want a ride?"
So, remembering the promise I made to my friends, I declined. He asked me if I was sure, 'cause it was a free ride.
Now, here's the thing. He wasn't driving an ordinary car. It was a rental limousine. He looked like he rented the limousine all the time. I had to decline again, but, all the while, I was thinking, "I could be riding in a limousine! For free!"
Sigh. So he drove off when the light went green--and I didn't get to ride in a limousine.

This is the third time it happened! I don't know what is going on, but it's weird. Do guys just do that all the time? "Oh, look, there's some helpless-looking female. I think I'll go see if she needs my help--for free."
I know my friend has sort of the same problem (what with guys accosting her on the streets all the time), but I thought that was just an anomaly. It doesn't happen to normal girls, does it?

I don't know why this is happening... I don't want to say all the time, because it isn't, so I'll say, at a frequent occurance (relatively).
But it's cool. :D
And harmless--so long as I decline.

Changes

This semester, for me, is just one of the many changes that have happened since 2011.
It's the first ever semester I've had without math and the sciences. And, GOD, it feels like such a relief. Let me put it this way:
Last year, first semester, I had chemistry and biology. Second semester (the start of the shittiest year of my life), I had physics and math. Then, after I failed physics and barely passed math, I had to take physics AGAIN in summer school. Then I had it first semester, grade 12. A month had barely passed before I had it again, determined not to fail this time. Well, I didn't. I barely passed, with the skin of my teeth (whatever that expression means), and got a perfect 50.
It's just... It feels like it's been FOREVER since I haven't had physics in my life. Maybe that's why it just put me in such a depressing mood.
This semester, second semester, and the start of 2011, it's been SO refreshing, only having to worry about English and computer languages and hardware (which is so completely easy I usually never have homework).
And, I think this is a good omen. It means that 2011 will be a good year (provided I don't fuck up again).

But it's not just school. There's been a lot of changes happening between friends and family. I know a lot of families (including mine) are anxious to kick us out to live in dorms (or on the streets--for some, it really doesn't matter).
My friends have been deciding whether to stick around high school for another grueling year, doing co-op and extra courses, or repeating courses.
This isn't about school. It's about life. It's about how many changes happen to an eighteen-year-old, and how scary all of it is.
For me, I see university as this huge, dark, old brick-by-brick building looming over me, as I hear an evil cackle in the distance, and the skeleton of the trees shiver as thunder roars through the sky. Sorry, Writer's Craft is getting to me.
It's just very dark, and looming, and omnipresent. As if I can't escape its fate.
And this analogy isn't just for university. It can also be applied to my future relationship with my friends (what with all that's happening) and just life in general.
I hope it turns out to be the opposite. I hope University, and my future career (and my friends') and my relationship with my family (which has taken a huge trip spiraling downwards--perhaps because of my antsy feeling that I need to GET OUT) will turn out for the better.
With my family, I'm going to try and see if distance will better the relationship--which is the exact opposite for my friends. I know the distance between me and my friends won't better our relationship--but, perhaps, it may give us time to think and relax, without all the pressures that friendship requires. And then, when we're ready to talk, and read the letters that come pouring from all sorts of places (Windsor, Nigeria, Canada...), we may be able to improve the bond, and/or just reflect on it.
I hope this year gives us time to relax , reflect, and just... improve us in the end.